Sunday, June 27, 2010

My Heart was Speeding. What's That About?

by Leann

For me, the Word Cup is over. We are eliminated. It's just a game, my husband says. But if so, why did I have such a visceral reaction to what happened Saturday. Why was my heart beating a mile a minute during the contest against Ghana? Why was my stomach fluttered like crazy? All this for a game I never watch but every four years? What the heck was going on?

My nerves got so bad, I couldn't watch the rest of the game after Ghana went ahead in the overtime. Now that I've had time to ponder my strong emotions, I'm beginning to understand. It's old business.

My son was on the high school soccer team. In fact, he played from the time he was five-years-old. Both my kids were involved in competitive extracurricular stuff from the time they were little. My son in basketball, baseball and soccer, my daughter in gymnastics (cut short by a broken wrist) and dance.

But soccer was the most brutal on me and my son. Besides sitting through games in the pouring rain and in the chilly, wet winters, my son was goalie for a time. Oh boy, talk about pressure. I was relieved when he became a defender. Unfortunately, he got beat up on a regular basis during most games in high school. Once he got kicked in the face so hard it knocked him out. But bloodied and sore, he got up and finished playing. Oy! That's where the speeding heart comes in.

Yes, back in those days, I watched all those soccer games because I felt I really had to. Saturday, I could turn off the TV and stop the tension. That felt good even though I am sorry for our nation's loss. As for my son, he continues to play even as an adult. He loves the sport and I know he hated that game on Saturday. I don't think we'll be discussing it! :-)

What about you? Can you relate? Did your kids or brothers or sisters do this kind of stuff? If so, are you still emotionally attached to the past?

11 comments:

Andrea C. said...

I totally get it Leann! I really don't care for most sports, but high school sporting events really get to me. I am a high school teacher (without any of my own children) and I go regularly to games to see my students. I get so wrapped up in it that I have trouble sleeping when I get home. I guess I have a vested interest in seeing the students I love so much succeed, but it still seems odd!
I also get this way with the Olympics and in a way, the game yesterday was kind of like an olympic game..maybe that is why you got to emotionally into it?!

tonya kappes said...

I do get it! I have four boys who all play sports, but my oldest is the soccer goalie for our high school varsity. Talk about a stressful PARENT position!!

Babs said...

I get it as well. When I was in highschool I played sports and then in college. Now my boys are starting to get into sports. Hope my heart holds out :). Just being a parent is stressful enough now to add sports in.

Leann Sweeney said...

I see I am not alone! I thought I was over this stuff, but my daughter is a dancer and at her show in NYC last fall, where I went to all 4 performances, my stomach was full of butterflies the entire time. I knew she'd be wonderful, but it was that special connection that we feel with our kids and our students that is so connected to our hearts. Sigh.

Mare F said...

With my son it was Little League and the boy could get hit by a ball like no one else I've ever seen. It was over 20 years ago and I still remember sitting at the ballfield in a wind chill of 26 degrees F and making repeated runs home to make gallons of hot cocoa for the boys. LOL. And it was April!

Katie said...

I was the goalie when I used to play soccer. stress central! I've made it a goal to start playing again next year when I'm done with school. we'll see if I'm woman enough to play goalie again though (I'm 5', I doubt they'd want me to)

Leann Sweeney said...

Ha, Mare! The high school soccer season for high school here in Texas is in the winter-January, February. Sounds like your spring!

And Katie, you go girl! Tough to be a goalie at 5'. I am impressed! But yes, stress city for you and I'm guessing for your loved ones, too. Made me a little crazy!

Andrea said...

I'm german to begin with. I grew up watching soccer. It's the most popular sport over here. I've followed the German Football League. All my male relatives or friends played soccer in their youth and we played soccer in school. I've learned about penalty and offside in kindergarten. :-) Girls didn't play soccer when I was a kid. It was a boys and men sport. That changed over the years fortunately.

During world cup time I'm watching every game and have my favourites. I cheered for the US team.

2006 we hosted the world cup. That was a great experience.

So, I love it and will watching all the games to the final with or without the german team. (But I'm happy they made it to the quarter finale.)

Best wishes from Germany
Andrea

Leann Sweeney said...

Andrea, now Germany has moved on and eliminated England. You must be walking on air!!

Heather Webber said...

I get it too. Lots of athletes in my house... We were heartbroken yesterday, too. Maybe next time, U.S.!

Lover of Books said...

I finally finished watching the game today. I was so heart broken. It was an amazing game! I totally get it too. I look forward to this every four years. Hubby's just happy it's done. I tend to neglect things a little. Opps. As soon as it was done, I finished putting away the kitchen stuff. Still moving but we're getting there.
Krista