For the first time in I don't know when, my grown children are both coming without their spouses or children. It will be like stepping back in time for a few days.
There are passages in everyone's life, but since I was estranged from my own parents, the transitions were different, fractured, dysfunctional. What that led to, for me, was a long bout of depression when my own kids left home. I'd worked hard to create a family environment where everything was different than when I grew up. Not perfect, but loving and caring and involved. But I failed to prepare myself for what it would be like without them close--and they are on opposite ends of the country now.
I miss them terribly. I would love to be able to have lunch with my daughter or babysit my granddaughter. Play Trivial Pursuit with my son-in-law and watch The Daily Show with him. My husband dislikes that program but Jeffrey loves it and we laugh so much when he's here and we turn that show on. These may seem like such small things, but gosh, the small things make a huge pile.
Traveling is difficult for me with the fatigue issues I deal with. It has certainly become a factor in not seeing my family as much as I would like. We text and call and Skype, but there is nothing like wrapping your arms around someone you love, someone you gave life to. That is what I am looking forward to the most in the next few days: hugs and smiles and laughs. Dinner out and board games or cards. And conversation with the two amazing adults that they have become.
What about you. Is there someone you miss? Has a passage to a different time in your life been tough? Tell me about it!